Deep Thoughts

Here we are. I am reading a new book by Wayne Dyer and it is quite good. This one is called "Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life". Funny because I saw it on the shelf at the library on a Friday and thought I ought to check it out but was in a hurry so I didnt . Then his show of the same name was on PBS on Sunday so I knew I had to read it. Now I think I will actually purchase the book as well. It is a good one to have for reference, one of those you will read again and again.

Work has been strange this week. I have learned a lot about people and their personalities. Sadly, the people have sucky personalities. One in particular is a cruel narcissist.

Its all about her. But there are some really interesting people too. Today the other Cindy, Anita and I were discussing the UFO sighting in Texas and got into a really interesting conversation about other phenomena. It was an exciting discussion and you could tell that we were all into it. It was nice to share and talk. Anyway, after reading this new book, I am feeling a little stronger about my own sense of self. I know that I dont need anyone elses approval to validate myself. Other peoples opinion of me is of no consequence to my life and happiness. If I know in my heart that I am doing the right thing, that is all that I need to be concerned about. Its kind of hard too. Some issues from my childhood are trying to get my attention lately and I find myself becoming upset with my mother for pushing me and dominating me as a child. But in reality, she only did what she knew best, and I really dont believe that there was any malice involved. Admittedly, I am the person I am partly because she was the way she was. But that is all done and gone and we are in the here and now. I am in control of my life, my thoughts and actions.

Oh well, no good to hash over it now. She is not going to change. I can only change the way I react and the way I allow things to affect me. Anyway, people at work have got on my nerves this week and that is why I am reflecting on all of these issues now. And, I guess I need to shut up now.

Talked to Karen today and we have lunch plans for Monday. I can't wait to see her again. There is so much to talk about. I miss her so much and it is hard not to get to talk every day. As miserable as that place was, she made it bearable.

Hoping to go see In The Name of The King soon too. It is not getting very good reviews, but hey, Ron Perlman is in it and that is all that is important. Any bad movie with Ron Perlman in it is better than a good movie without him.

Love to all